Vampyre Fantasies

The Perfect Daughter

2004-11-23T16:37:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect one.
The girl who at every turn made you smile and proud to have her.
So many times I wished to be her.
But wishing would not make it happen.
You don't understand the pain I feel and you say that you love us the same.
You don't know that you're lying.
I want you to be proud of me, but every choice I make seems to make you even more unhappy.
I scream and cry myself to sleep but can you hear me?
No because blankets and pillows muffle my sorrow.
So praise her, love her, hold her, and treat her.
Be happy for you have the perfect daughter and she is not me.

Looking in the Mirror

2004-11-23T16:30:00.000-08:00

Who is that girl I see looking back at me?
I'm not sure.
Is that the same girl that I see everyday?
Dark hair, eyes of honey, smiling lips, and skin so soft.
Beauty I realized when my eyes were opened by my first love.
Though not many recognize it the exterior I show hides my insecurities.
I feel safe safe in the arms of love but where are those arms?
Those arms are gone so saftey is as well and pain, fear, and self loathing replace all the good.
Beauty has turned to the ugliness that I see everyday and no more smiles grace my face.

Hide My Tears

2004-11-23T16:23:00.000-08:00

Rain, rain come today.
Pour down hide my tears and all my fears.
Lightning strike close to that which I hate.
Thunder be my voice let me scream, let me shout.
My pain and sorrow is overflowing, take it now, show them how.
Don't want to feel anymore, just a wave upon the shore.
Peices of me scattered, I have no more heart, I have no more cares.
When did I get so stretched ?
I"m just too stressed.

Destined

2004-11-23T16:17:00.000-08:00

They say I'm like sister oranother one of the guys.
When will I be the love interest or the girlfriend?
I sit in front of this mirror trying to see that something.
Is it yrue that girls like me aren't meant for love?
Could I be anything more?
Or is my life destined to be lonely and closed?

What Was This?

2004-11-09T15:31:00.000-08:00

Where did I go wrong?
Did I believe too much in us?
Was there ever really an us?
From the outside our friends thought we were in love and so did I.
Yet I know something was wrong.
Things were too bright, too clean, too picture perfect.
I believed sweet lies from your lips.
The same sweet lips that kissed me softly.
Instinct said run, my heartsaid stay love.
So why now I'd like to know....
Did you ever truly love me?
Did you simply need the extra ego boost of a niave' teenage girl that thought the world of you?

Family

2004-11-04T11:08:00.000-08:00

They have so many faces.
All a different shape and size.
Some have dimples others don't.
Brown eyes,blue, green, and hazel.
We come together,
We stay far apart,
But no matter love or hate we are Family.
We fight but still have a the connection.
Laughter, tears, scratches, and mending,
We all have a coomon place .
So whether we like or not we will always be Family....

No Where to Go

2004-11-02T14:55:00.000-08:00

Where am I to go?
No one seems to care or hear my cries.
Sobs rack my body and the pain is unbearable.
Friends do not exist in this cold lonely world.
Darkness surrounds and fear is an everyday occurence.
Where can I turn ?
Who can I look to for comfort and love?
Do I even exist others?
Or am I just the pretty doll that sits on the shelf thaa catches dust and is taken down for show and tell?
I sit there on that shelf longing for companionship and love but day after day more dust collects and I am forgotten.